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Apr. 7th, 2011 09:29 amOne of the nasty side effects of having a prolonged period of downishness is that it makes me a)selfish and b)forgetful. I have the sensation at the moment that life is what is happening while I sit here, because I just don't feel able to cope with living it.
In an attempt to compensate, I tend to drown myself in Stuff - craft things, reading things, food things - anything that will let me feel. It's also a way of proving to myself that I'm useless. Look at all these wonderful things and how few of them you're achieving. So I just end up deeper and deeper in Stuff until I can't see a way out any more.
In an attempt to dig myself out, I've been making achievable lists and concentrating on Getting Stuff Done, but there are always things that fall through the cracks, sometimes with impressively poor results. To help me stop missing things so much, I've just done a bit of a journal trim. Mostly comms, but some people as well, and usually folk that either aren't around any more or where we don't really talk any more.
As I said above, I'm very much Not With It at the moment, so if you think I ticked the box by accident, PLEASE let me know. Lurkers are always welcome, but the trouble is that I don't always know you're there. Comment or DM me if I've screwed up and I'll try to put it right.
In an attempt to compensate, I tend to drown myself in Stuff - craft things, reading things, food things - anything that will let me feel. It's also a way of proving to myself that I'm useless. Look at all these wonderful things and how few of them you're achieving. So I just end up deeper and deeper in Stuff until I can't see a way out any more.
In an attempt to dig myself out, I've been making achievable lists and concentrating on Getting Stuff Done, but there are always things that fall through the cracks, sometimes with impressively poor results. To help me stop missing things so much, I've just done a bit of a journal trim. Mostly comms, but some people as well, and usually folk that either aren't around any more or where we don't really talk any more.
As I said above, I'm very much Not With It at the moment, so if you think I ticked the box by accident, PLEASE let me know. Lurkers are always welcome, but the trouble is that I don't always know you're there. Comment or DM me if I've screwed up and I'll try to put it right.