Jan. 18th, 2018

jadesfire: [text] No broken bones, slight loss of dignity. No change there then. (No broken bones)
1. It is not good to come into your day already wound up. But A Thing happened, I flailed around a bit, calmed down and am now just even more tired than I was at the start. So I now have more coffee (decaf) and am trying this whole 'morning' thing again.

2. I'm going to a lunch out with colleagues, which will be nice, but also stressful, as it's Day 4 of Whole 30, and I'm starting to feel it. There are benefits, which I noticed first time around, in terms of feel a lot less bloated and uncomfortable in general, but there are also annoyances, like constantly craving sugary food. Actually, no that's not quite right. I crave pastries, for some reason. But getting such immediate bonuses is going to keep me on track, and I've got back-up food in case my lunch salad is disappointing. I can do this *determined face*

3. As part of my 'For Goodness sake, sort your files out' project, I've found a new Audiobook app for my phone/iPad, which means I can put Podfic in one app and other audiobooks in the other. It's called Bookmobile, and you use wifi to transfer things from your computer to it. I tried it out last night, and it seems pretty good, and I like the idea of having my library properly organised by genre. Now I just need to finish converting all the files (I have A LOT of podfic, y'all. Like, really. A LOT)

4. I'm considering whether or not offer assistance to the Star Wars Big Bang, who seem a bit desperate for betas and artists. On the one hand, podfic counts as art, I probably have the time to beta, and I did say I'd do more fests this year. On the other, I only know a tiny proportion of Star Wars canon nowadays, and the fest is being 100% run on Tumblr, which I find confusing. It feels like the Pratchett adage that you shouldn't trust something if you can't see its brain. I know that's just me being old and crochety, but I wonder about the wisdom of signing up to something on a platform I'm not entirely comfortable with.

ETA: I've offered basic beta services to anyone, and am thinking about podficcing. Because I'm not dim (despite evidence to the contrary) and am sure I can figure this out!

5. When we went on holiday last December, I so desperately needed a rest that I took the momentous decision to remove my work email from my phone. For the past 5 years, I'd insisted that I felt better knowing what was going on, so I didn't come back to any nasty surprises. But my library assistant is deeply competent and was going to be here the whole time, and it seemed like a good chance to experiment.

I realised this morning that I haven't put it back, and that hasn't been an issue. If I go away in September, when things are ramping up to term, I might consider adding it again. Or I might not. It's been oddly freeing, I have to say!

5a. Oxford looks ridiculously beautiful in the light today - the stone more or less glows. I put a picture on my Instagram, to remind myself that this place is real, not a film set.
jadesfire: [text quoting Blackadder] It's a 12 storey crisis with a magnificent entrance hall... (LARGE CRISIS)
I...could use to hear happy things right now, please? It was already a wobbly day full of exhaustion and brain fog, then Another Thing happened. It's to do with a siuation that always gives me something close to a panic attack, but I can't get myself calmed down again, and am still shaking an hour later.

So please tell me something happy. Or send me pictures of happy things. Or...something? I just need to ground myself again, and none of my usual strategies are working.